It's not suppose to hurt this way
7:17 PM | Monday, June 9, 2008
I'm growing, so fast I don't even feel it. I'm experiencing things I never thought will ever happen, fast and hard. And for the side record, it's affecting me quite a lot as much as I don't show it (okay maybe I do but not it isn't blatantly obvious I guess). Everytime I think of how cruel life is my heart cries out pixie dust. It hurts seeing the people around you getting their hearts torn apart because of what may seem like the silliest reasons and yet all I can do is listen and stop myself from doing anything cause I've done the stupidest things - things which I can't forgive myself for doing. Today made me realise that no matter how thin we slice it, theres always two sides to everything and when there are people fighting to stay neutral, some recklessly take the extremes. I've come to realise that no man dares or want to stand alone in this world and how horrible the feeling of being judge from others ungodly bigoted point of views feels like. So I honestly wish that all these pretencious veneers will soon shed off and true feelings can blossom. And even if the truth hurts, it'll only sting for awhile. The hardest bit is to learn to forgive and we should all do cause its the best feeling ever, its the feeling we put on parade.
Anyhow.. ffffffffffreak. I've lost something yesterday and I dont even know if its worth losing ): AH DAMNIT. I need to talk to Lou&manda. I miss my girlfriends ): Met Yingqi yes-yesterday and it totally made my day :DDDDDDDDD I can't wait for this week to go soon. WO YAO HUI JIA LA.
Anyhow.. ffffffffffreak. I've lost something yesterday and I dont even know if its worth losing ): AH DAMNIT. I need to talk to Lou&manda. I miss my girlfriends ): Met Yingqi yes-yesterday and it totally made my day :DDDDDDDDD I can't wait for this week to go soon. WO YAO HUI JIA LA.