Yours truly.

"I have known her only for two years. But if you took every moment, every memory, if you stretched them from end to end - they'd reach forever." - My Sister's Keeper.

Had fun with Loulou today :)
Went to her church for some "Reach" Youth thingy and it was really nice to be there :] It was really meaningful and all. Sharing was cute and the songs were pretty nice ! Anyway let me tell you how Loulou the pig got to my house. She took a cab and ended up being dump at Cjc's back gate. Which was this tiny isolated, deserted place. Hahaha so amusing right. And she had to walk through Cj to get to the main gate. Like going through a maze yknw. And apparently she found her way back hahah tsk tsk lost kitty kitty :p Yeah so we did some art and caft thing which was uh highly amusing. Bought the crayon-paint thing from school bookshop for 3.50 :) Reasonable price although they don't have pink inside :( Hahaha anyway, this was what we did to kill time:



Yuuuuuup. Oh however, the sad thing is: I didn't get to see Z, N and Longlong ! >:( Pouts. (Winks at Lou) HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

Okay thats all I've got for today :) I'm going to go read Hp now woot. Btw, Sam's coming over tmrw. Packed weekends spell LOVE :3

I can't differentiate between the real and the fake you. You're making me believe that you're not the one I've known for the past few years. At times, I'll feel a part of you coming back, that familiar feeling but in a split second, I'm losing you all over again. So I guess this is how peoeple change. You surrender to your emotions and let it conquer you. Believe it or not, sometimes, people see you more clearly than you see yourself.

This (points up) is Kerropi the Frog. The frog which I disected today. Don't worry it died in honor and went in peace. Kerropi has sacrficed for the sake of science, he (I assume cause we didn't find any eggs in him) has done well to society and mankind, educating youngsters like us by providing his body as a specimen for us to work on. Thank you, Kerropi for you chivalrous, selfless sacrifice. You have brought glory to your own kind.

Yeah okay so we disected a frog today and it wasn't as bad as we thought. But it was gory indeed, thats for sure. So I'm not going blog about the process nor am I going to upload the pictures in case you guys out there start getting all nauseous and queasy. Hahahahahhaha

After school, Andrea, Ada and Manda came over. Coincidentally, all their initials start with A and their reg no. are consecutively 1, 2 & 3 respectively. Hahahha we had immense fun I tell you ! Twister, badminton and self-made-water-games are cool ttm ! Here are some snapshots to prove my point :3



Healthy form of relaxation. Wicked awesome :] Hohoho out with Loulou tmrw, yay !

Take chances, and take a lot of them.
Because, honestly, no matter where you end up, or with whom,
it will always end up just the way it should be.
Your mistakes help to make who you are.
You learn and grow with every choice you make.
Make everything worth it, and always say what you feel.
Be yourself, and be okay with it.

"What will you give me if I spin that
straw into gold for you?" Rumpelstiltskin asked.
"My life," the miller's daughter answered.
"And everything that comes with it."

Ever wondered how vulnerable life can be ? At this very moment, someone out there is dying; someone out there just lost a kin; someone out there is beside the hospital bed of the person he loves most in his life, watching the reading of the electrocardiometer fall flat into a straight line; someone out there is struggling to hold on for dear life; someone out there just had a still born; someone out there is hung for killing another someone. Images of our lives play out like shadows on the wall - shrouded with darkness and all you can see are the outline of regrets which you have never learned to let go. Learn not to take things for granted because you'll never know that, any moment starting from now, that someone out there, might be you.

HAHAHAHHA EHEHHEHEH HOHOHOHOO OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGMGOMGMGO. This picture is so not burnable. Hahahahahahah my stomach is exploding. That (points up) is my sister. And I'm proud to say that she's mine cause she looks like a cartoon character ! Uh okay no link. Haha I've yet to figure out which cartoon character does she look like but I know she does resemble one; so tell me if you have any idea yeah ? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

There's Prelim Oral tmrw. I am going to D die. Yeah this is how much I hate and can't make it for Orals. Oh dear. Oh dear. And lwj has checked the abroad thing for me already and to enter Taylor, I need to score at least 4Bs and 2Cs for Prelims. PRELIMS. Which happens to be in uh, five weeks' time ? I can just go like bury myself now.

I hope everything will go well tmr. I'm feeling sick. It's a kind of phsycological impairment I have and it always acts up before a major test or exam. Great. It's like I'm having Anaphylactic and my heart feels too big for my chest. Gosh. Someone save me from this world filled with darkness of dispair :(

Oh and this, below, is totally true. But yknw what ? Its easier said than done.

Pain is a feeling, and your feelings are part of you and your own reality.
If you're ashamed of them, and you hide them,
then you're letting society destroy reality.
You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.

The beast:
"I want to get her something special"
Cogsworth:
"Well there's always the usual:
chocolates, flowers, and promises you don't intend to keep."

- Beauty and the Beast

My thrid all time favourite Disney fairytale :)

I am so gonna die for this week's upcoming tests namely - A & E Maths, Chemistry(which happens to fall undesirably on the same day as Bio), uh yeah Bio, Chem Spa (which is postponed to dknw when), Chinese and Literature (JLC :]). Firstly, the past two intended-for-studying-days were a totaly failure. Cause obviously, I've been indulging in the wrong things. Rahhhhhhh, uh come on LeeLingJing you need to buck up before its too late. Oh wait, its already too late - Prelims are 5 weeks away. Congrats.

Before I plunge into Trigonometry and friends, I'll briefly describe what happened yesterday and the day before yesterday. Hahaha, I haven't had this much fun for like many weeks.

Friday was Learning Journey. Take note of the Acronym man. LJ going on LJ. Cool or what. Hahaha. So we went to Parliament House which was uh, cool enough I guess. I didn't know there is so much to Singapore's Pariliament than what meets the eye. Learned a lot, even though I'm not really into Parliament hahaha. After the "journey", went home with Manda. All the usual talks and monkey businesses were great forms of relaxation :] Not forgetting our Neopets multiplayer ! :)) Ah I love the monkey in my stomach (Winks @ Manda).

Oh talk about Friday, tomorrow is the last episode of Xing Yun Xin ! Can't wait omg.

Hahah yeah. Oh then yesterday, had piano. It was a disaster cause I'm really like out of touch. Other than the fact that my nails were, and still are, exceptionally short and trimmed (no thanks to Gwong), there wasn't really anything new. I still couldn't play the Sonatina fluently, minusing the first few pages of course. The rest were just, uh, side reading all the way. Hahaha but theory was alright :] At least my mild functionig brain didn't decide to rule tenor clefs out completely :) After Piano was just reading reading and reading until the sister decided to go out and catch a movie. Well we did catch a movie, more than one actually. Transformers and Invisible Target. Two actions in a day. My heart almost leaped out of my mouth at the end of every show. Oh and did I mention that we sat first row for Transformers ? Yeah imagine the craning of the neck. And Orchard at night is...... Scary.

So yeah I'm not going to screw today up. Dad made me stay home to study for a reason right ? Yes yes. I'm not going to fail this time. I'm going to conquer Trigo and uhhhhhhh the other chapters which I am suppose to conquer. I KNOW WHO DIED FOR DEATHLY HALLOWS ! (Thanks to Yingsss) :(((((( Ah sad.

Alrighty world, mug hard :)
Laterrrrrrrr.

More than you'll ever know, we're all hurting. Just because you're hurting doesn't mean you have to be special.
Delicated to you.

All of our lives, we search for someone to love, someone to makes us complete. And almost every life has one true love snapshot.

We all need something we consider worth getting up in the morning for. Whether it's real or not, healthy or destructive, tangible or false, is irrelavant. Since when you've got nothing to hold on to, deception can seem pretty inviting.

Today started off with an extremely dark note. Trust me, you'd never want your day to commence like the one I had experience this morning. I'm not angry anymore since its over. I just feel uh, uncomfortable; you know, like suddenly your heart feels too big for your chest to contain ? Yeah. So just let me emote for awhile (: Having people accusing you of something you didn't do really isn't nice, at all. Just because you didn't see, doesn't mean that you're right and I'm wrong. Like wth ? You know, its really easy to point your finger at someone even though you don't have any full proof evidence, or rather you don't have any evidence at all. But guess what, it doesn't feel nice being the victim. Yeah, totally. Thanks for nothing.

Bloody key. I'm not happy that I found it cause, I wasn't even the one who lost it in the first place. But at least, I've proved that: I'm not disillusional.

Yeah so anyway, the day didn't get any better. Maths test was like shit. I wonder what did the teachers do to the test papers man. Those who took the Emath paper should know what I'm talking about. Hello teacehers, its a test paper and we actually worked hard and studied for this stupid test. In the end ? What crap did you give us. Almost every single question had an error, like wth ? At least make it less slipshod please. I've never seen such shit before.

Fortunately, after the screwed up Emath test, everything went rather well. Hahaha I had fun during the second half of the day :) Sam and Hnin are amusing seating parts and I love them plenty wenty ! Oh and Twinnie recovered from the severe deadly stomach flu which almost took her stomach away :O Yay so she was in school and we went for tuition instead for the track meet.

There isn't any test tmrw hence after tuition, went home to play Audaud :) Hahahaha coupled with Twinnie and it was fun ttm ! Hahaha everyone thought I was gay. Okay I guess. Hahah cause I kept going ^^ and :). Bwahahaha yay I love to play Aud ! Twinnie and I make a great "couple" ! Yayness :]

I need to go mug SSSSSSSSSSSSS now.
Bye world.

Favourite song of the week :]

If everyone cared - Nickelback



From underneath the trees, we watch the sky
Confusing stars for satellites
I never dreamed that you'd be mine
But here we are, we're here tonight

Singing Amen, I, I'm alive
Singing Amen, I, I'm alive

If everyone cared and nobody cried
If everyone loved and nobody lied
If everyone shared and swallowed their pride
Then we'd see the day when nobody died
And I'm singing

Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive
Amen I, Amen I, Amen I, I'm alive

And in the air the fireflies
Our only light in paradise
We'll show the world they were wrong
And teach them all to sing along

And as we lie beneath the stars
We realize how small we are
If they could love like you and me
Imagine what the world could be

We'd see the day when nobody died

Angry. Angry. Angry.
I can't sign into Audition =( and Friendster keeps sending me weird messages. AND I'M BORED TO THE MAX. Louisa Tan Han Lin is not replying me on Msn =( LOUSERRRRRR ! Hahahaha okay anyway, today's dinner with Manda was great :) Lessons were alright, not as heavy as usual and we didn't have Bio extended today which was totally cool. Hahaha and I think I'm eating way too much. Counting all the 2 dollars plus worth of food during recesses and the constant suppers every night, I think I've put on a rather large amount of calories. WHICH IS BAD cause CARBS = STACH = MALTOSE = GLUCOSE and soon, my blood glucose level will rise till sky high which will cause my liver to explode due to the immense amount of glycogen, leading to unforseen cumbersomes. Okay Lou's finally replying my Msn. Good girl. Yeah so anyway as I was saying, I'm eating a lot recently. Hence, I'm going to exercise ! Yay, I dknw how but haha I'll just do it :) Okay my fingers are aching. Thats all for today ! Harry Potter with Twinnie and Tingting tmrw. Can't wait.

Love world :)
Peace out.

My mom did an extremely weird thing today. She totally just wiped out my room when I was away mugging my ass off in school. Diao. Now my room is sparkling neat and tidy. Good ? I doubt. I can't find my things at all >:[ Oh Mina told me that she cleared like two big bags of rubbish (yeah RUBBISH) from my room. I wonder what RUBBISH did she throw away. Oh gosh, happy treasure hunting to me.

Everyone seems to be having a rough time right now. Coping with studies, tests, family, friends and more. Right now studies are currently the most important thing in the world. I'm afraid. I'm scared to screw up. I'm not prepared. I don't want to commit. But tell me, what choices do I have ? What choices do we have ?

There comes a time when everything in your life goes off course and in this desperate moment, you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are ? Or will you label yourself ? Will you be honored by your choice, or will you embrace your new path ? Each morning you choose to either move forward, or to simply give up.

Whatever it is, you just have to move on. Deal with change. Hold on. Stay strong and get on with life, before its too late.

I am too lazy to blog.

So only one liners for today.

Study session with Ting and Twinnie was fun :)

Dinning out with the family was hilarious and I'm starting to love them even more :]

Stress meter is high yet I'm doing nothing about it.

I'm not gonna study tonight.

I created another Audition acc :)

I need to go and bathe again.

And lastly...
Manda doo doo love got into VJ and I'm so proud of her ! :D Muahcks.

:((((((((((((( I'm feeling nostalgic. Hey choir, you know how much I miss you ?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it Okay
I miss you.

Thank God for testless Fridays :)

5,388 youths are arrested.
4,219 teenagers get an std.
3,610 teens are assaulted
80 are raped.
2,861 teens drop out of school.
1,377 teenagers become mothers.
1,106 teenage girls get an abortion.
1,000 adolescents begin using drugs.
420 children are arrested for drug use.
And 6 teens commit suicide...in 1 day.

Which one of those do you want to be ?
None ? Then pick yourself up this instance.

I'm a semi happy kid. Finally, for once in my life, I can bade my Eczema goodbye and welcome soft smooth skin ! :] (Okay that sounded kinda wrong). Anyway, I'm on immense medication now, and I guess insanity is probably one of the uncontrollable side effects. Alright I know I'm not making much sense. Bwhahaha. Yeah so anyway, there are two tests tmrw ! Nothing new. It'll be a battle against Humanities yo. And I seriously hope that I'll dream of Mao Tse-tung tonight so that he can tell me all about himself; his life stories; how was he able to defeat the CCP and survivie the insurmountable Long March. Oh and most importantly, a prediction on what will be tested for tmrw's History test HAHAHA, I hope the Long March comes out :] Social Studies will be on Chapter four about boring Singapore I think. Haven't touch the book at all and this reminds me - I should probably start mugging soon. Sigh. We the Sec fours of CHIJ St. Nicholas Girls' School are leading such sad, miserable lifes. We're deidicating almost all of our time (excluding zZZZzzZz) to school and on studying YET time is still running out like quicksand - subconsciously slipping away. I got this strong premonition that when the big day finally arrives, everything will start crashing down, like thunder in your heart. Now, what I need is a few cups of inspiration, a pinch of motivation and a daily dosage of determination to pull me through the post exammination period, which indeed I must say, is the most treacherous one.

Okay I should seriously go dive back into the Lingjing's home for historical figures :] Yeah happy studying friends, we will get there manXzx. Blogging is a sin. I'm wasting 5 minutes plus plus of my studying time huh. I guess I just needed some form of catharsis.

Got dental tmrw :( He is so gonna scold me for not using rubber bands. Rwar. Oh and I need a new pair of specs, my trusty emo specs is falling apart. Hahahahhahaaha

Almost everyone you know, without an exception, has their hearts wrapped around someone who will never love them back.

And yknw in fairytales, when the mask came off, the handsome prince still loved the girl, no matter what- and that alone, would turn her into a princess. So don't be afraid of who you are, and who you will eventually become. Let nature take its course and when the time arrives, trust me, you'll be proud to be who you've become and grown into.

Triple hurrays to the finally-over-math and chem test. And double boos to the Emath one tmrw. I am going to fricking flunk the fooking (f)paper. Wish me luck.